what you were thinking now did cross my mind before...
for what F***ing reason must we be the one that all once have been...
can't we just be the freaking unique one?

it took me quite long to find the ans...
she talk to me for freaking lots of time...
no doubt for the first few times, i turn a deaf ear to her...
i always thought the problem lies on her since she the only one saying all those negatives stuff..
i have always feel like rebarking her...
but it was when more and more of them started to complain...
it seems that now, the prob had always been lieing on us...

i thought abt what she told me over the months...and of course each time, i feel damn pissed off...but after cooling down...i managed to get an idea what she was saying afterall...it did freaking make sense...it was then when i confirm that i have always been wrong and she was right...though not absoutely...

i tried to recall how i have been the past few months...indeed...something was not right...
frankly speaking, she help me alot...which is not really required now...but maybe in the long run...the more i think of what she said...the more i feel that it is right....

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SOMEONE MANAGED TO MAKE ME THINK THAT THEY ARE RIGHT!!!!

but she was wrong in some sense too....frankly speaking, i'm not the only one with such problem...it was only because i reveal myself too soon...theres always some backstage scene that you will never be able to witness somehow...

i remember how stunned you looked when lian lian, zhao jun and zhengye perform for u during TCD...thats an example of u not able to see something that is not usually presented in front of u...
u must be amazed by their behaviour huh?!?!?

there's always something that you never understands and know...especially for our class..of course, you were right in some places, but also...maybe due to generation gap, u seem to lack the ability to find out most of our mindset...or rather, most teenager mindset.

but nevertheless....i have to thank you for telling me all those stuffs...though it really piss me off...it did leave something behind on me.

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